durr...

it's like my heart's about to burst.

i promised that i was willing to make that sacrifice.

don't get me wrong. i am.

it doesn't mean that i want to. that it's easy for me.

or that i would smile through it, or handle it well.

i was not asked to do it. and now it's being forced down my chest.

when we breathed together, i was never more alive,

and now here i kneel gasping, fighting for air.